I wonder how he is doing. How work is going. What he’s up to right now. How his day was. What’s he doing for the rest of the week. If he ever got off waitlist. If he thinks about me. If he misses me. If he still loves me. If he misses Perry. If he ate. If he sleeps peacefully. If he has the urge to talk to me like I do.
etanu.
If I did my calculations correctly, I’m pretty much maxed on my units. When I finish all my upper division courses for Biology & its related units, and Philosophy, I’m left with 36 units to play with (plus 2 breath courses left to take). I can’t take summer school my junior2senior summer anymore, even though I wasn’t sure I was even going to anyways, but at least now I know for sure I can’t. Otherwise I’d be graduating early.
Fuck. This is pretty bittersweet for me.
Pros:
1) At least I know I’m graduating in 4 years.
2) At least I was able to stay on track unlike the many students at UCR.
3) I was able to stay on top of my game as a CNAS Major, AND decide to have a minor in something I like.
4) I’m able to take just 3 courses every quarter my fourth year, on anything I want.
5) I’m just on top of my game, and I LOVE IT.
Cons:
1) My GPA isn’t where I want it to be, and I obviously don’t have much time (or units) to raise it up.
2) I can’t, nor would I want to, fail another class again or else I can say goodbye to 4 precious units.
3) As nice as it may sound to graduate on time, or even early if I wanted to, this is going to be a very hard 2 years left. I’m going to need to put a lot of my energy, time and focus to be where I’ve always wanted to be at the end of my 2 years left.
I’m pretty scared/nervous/anxious/excited/nauseous at the moment thinking about all of this.
And I don’t know if I’m happy or not because medical school isn’t going to accept me for the fact that I graduated in the right amount of time. What if my GPA never raises. What if I stay where I’m at right now. What if I don’t ever get into medical school. What if, what if, what if.
Yeah yeah yeah, “I’m crazy”.
Well you’re stupid. I can’t even enroll for that many classes on my first day of registration. I’m only enrolled in 3 currently and waitlisted in 1, with a total amount of 16 units. SHADDDUPPPP.
Anyways, so my classes schedule is shown as it is because I don’t want to be in Philosophy 169E (although the professor seems easy), and 153 (I ain’t no socialist -_-). The classes I did want were Philosophy 117 (so I can have an emphasis on my minor on Natural Sciences) and 135 (or an emphasis on Cognitive Science). But hell, those classes filled up quick so I’m stuck with a socialist class, and some random one ):
My hopes to not have class on T and R failed miserably. Word of advice? READ THE PREREQ’s… -_- It’s okay, I’ll stick with the waitlist for CBNS101 and take 107A, 119, and 168 some other time ):
Where are my breath courses you may ask? Saving all those easy peasy classes for my last year! I already plan on cruising it with 12-13 units on my last year here! (Hopefully last year -_- I don’t wanna be a super senior buttt, gotta get those grades up ): ).
EDIT:
Fuhh, I only need 2 more breath courses after this summer and I’m going to be done with it. I only need 4 more classes after the fall for upper division bio. I still have 3 more classes of related units of my degree that I still need to take as well. As for my minor, after this fall, I only need 2-3 more upper division phil classes. Can you say, graduate in 3 years? WOW.
etamu.
I have no idea why I’ve posted so much this month, haha.
Even though I’ve had complete downs so far in my life with school, funding, relationships, and whatnot, I’ve had a lot of better days thanks to Circle K.
I’ve just about met some of the most amazing people, being an inspiration and allowing me to be truly amazing as well. I’m so excited for my term as D.O. Spirit Chair. I can’t wait to meet the numerous people in CNH District. I can’t wait to travel to Nevada, different regions of California, and Canada for ICON next year. I can’t wait for friendships to grow and ties to build.
(But really, I think I’m having so much fun so far because of BrettButler keheheh :3 FANGIRL).
As for school, I register tomorrow. I’m praying I get all my classes for this first round. Being a biology major and registering for upper division courses is like digging your way through crowds on Black Friday )’: All the good things go first. As of right now, my schedule and its standings are pretty solid, I just have to wait for 8 am to roll by in the morning! Early bird tomorrow!
etalambda.
I didn’t want to be so drowned in loans anymore, so for the upcoming year, I only took partial loans out - half of what they would have wanted me to accept. However, my stomach is queasy and I’m getting very nervous already that I might not enough to pay off school, with extra in my pockets to pay for rent.
I already have to pay a bit extra for summer session, something I thought I would be able to cover. And I still have 3 months worth of rent left in my lease. Money in my bank account is depleting, very very quickly. And later, I’m going to have to put a down in the house(?) that my old roommates and I are looking to rent, if we ever decide on a stupid house (much more on that later).
With all this plus tuition for next year, I don’t know if I’m going to have money (in time or at all) to pay for when Fall comes. And the last thing I would want is to ask my parents again, or even my sister.
Man.
etakappa.
Can eyes be too big for eyeliner o_o? I think that’s what it is with my eyes. I look very, in the upmost way, awkward in make-up, specifically eyeliner. I mean, I wanna be cool too T__T. With the cat-eyes, and the winged whatever and whatnot. I want to be able to look ABG (can I take that back actually?) sometimes. I want to get dressed up for occasions, although there aren’t much to come by.
WHY must I be too skinny, flat chested, big-eyed, buck-teethed, no butt, too tan, flat-nosed, etc!
The fall of the natural in this society, sigh. T__T.
*This post was partially sarcastic*.
But if I could have anything, it would be to pull off wearing shorts without being called too skinny.
